those fumes

l to r: ds coronation, ds mystery, merry midnight, russian navy - suede, here today... aragon tomorrow, shim-merry chic; all opi

last friday, during one of my shopping excursions at the mall, i walked by a hair salon. one thing caught my eye: "two for $15 CAD, all opi". next thing i knew it, i spent nearly one hour at the hair salon juggling 12 different shades, trying to narrow it down to six. it is no secret among my friends that i am a nail polish junkie. i am hardly without my varnish on my nails. i hardly wear 'appropriate' colours on my hands, that is because i don't have to - still being in school has its perks. if anything i think i am most drawn towards unconventional hues of green, purple and holographic glitters. you can tell i've been craving some darker shades.

currently, i have russian navy - suede on my tips , which is gorgeous. the colour is nothing like the original formula, this is reminiscent of new denim, in both colour and texture. the matte finish gives the polish no glossiness whatsoever, but the shimmers in the polish really give this colour some dimension. this also looks amazing with a top coat on. like dazzl' amazin'.

burning bridges

being a marketing student, there are so many outgoing people in my class. people that are articulate, smart, AND well put together. everything i should aspire to be, but it is so hard for me. building connections are so difficult to start, maintain, and retain. it seriously exhausts me to death. small talk, making time for people you are not that concerned about, pretending to care about a stranger's weekend.

i don't know how much i like facebook. i've been purging my friends list ever since i started college, with the influence of a close friend. people i don't need, i don't want to be 'friends' with, people i don't care about, people that are acquaintances, people that i hopefully will never see again. i like fb for the reason of changing my display picture - people with this level of vainest, will understand. haha.


people ask me: 'why are you in marketing then?'

i like calculating and meticulous strategizing of marketing. how there is different, never set ways, of completing things. how marketing is almost an art of manipulation of business. how you can get away with things you normally cannot get away from other studies of business. truthfully, i like learning about it, applying it group projects is terrifying, and don't get me started on doing it for a living. where your efforts actual is counted on to produce a profit. so much pressure. what if you don't meet their expectations. if i had all the money in the world, my ideal career would be to study all different things. biology, history, languages, anthropology, astrology, religions etc, but never have to apply it to real life. i want to just hoard all the knowledge.

i like my future to be unpredictable. murky and gray. like feeling around in thick fog. if it hits me, great. if it doesn't, there will be a next time. if i stub my toe on an obstacle, i should have looked down. i guess i am not that competitive nor aggressive. i should be.

cream

wearing: zipia leather jacket, zipia lace dress, zipia black brogues, joe fresh style ribbed tights, nightmarket scarf.

in attempts to avoid feeling like the idiot stick figure with no soul, i dug up my old hair crimper. can you tell i've been watching too much old sex and city reruns?

the weather is great. it would be better if i had the military parka from TNA